Wednesday, 17 November 2010
Life with a capital "L"
I also find it quite hard to show how I am here - on this blog. So from now on I am challenging myself to be as open as possible.
When I first started blogging - it was like a drug. I had to do it night and day. I'd wake up and want to blog in the middle of the night. I'd let myself comment on a blog here and then I had to do another, another and another.
I reined myself back in as I felt very guilty when my son (aged two then) and daughter (aged five then) tugged on my sleeve...begging to be let between my eyes and the screen.
So I'd didn't let myself blog. I wrote posts and then felt very guilty when I didn't go back to other people's blogs.
So I am going to try again to see if I can be "normal" about it. I'd be interested to hear everyone's strategies for dealing with blogging. How often do you comment? Do you stick to the blogs you know? Do you strike out into unknown territory and if so...how do you do it? How often?
I've deliberately not mentioned too much about our 2009 annus horribilis ('orrible year) because it is so bad (in my head) that I still cannot bring myself to think too much about it. Some things are still ongoing and are "sub judice" (kind of "under review") as they say. When I can talk about them I will. Sorry to sound so mysterious.
I've enjoyed going out and blogging this morning. Catching up on a few blogs and hearing all about your different lives. I've heard that French Fancy has given up blogging (very sadly for us) and that Fly has moved to Costa Rica from France. Just to name a couple of examples.
I've made a list (for myself) of about 25 things that did not go too well for us last year but some things are definitely going right for us in 2010. The B&B is an undoubted success. Mr. H's father is a lot better than he was. He is over his period of mourning for his wife (who died on Christmas Day 2008). I'm feeling much better healthwise. (I was struck low by something truly 'orrible in 2009. With the right treatment that resolved itself.) We still need to seek a Winter Income and for that reason...I'm working on teaching Latin Minimus Courses to the wider world (combined with the guiding). I'm a tad nervous about that. I'll try and talk about my hopes and fears on that front if I can. (Having said that. The lovely Bettany Hughes was talking about Latin & Greek on Women's Hour this morning.)
We're still living between two houses and we need to try and decide what to do. I hate living out of bags but I'm prepared to face up to doing what I have to do purely to get this family reunited under one roof. Can we afford to do the loft conversion (for us) this Winter? (The sales of houses in this area are pretty dead. We've had the little house on the market for over a year now. Nothing doing. ) Needless to say our filing systems are not straightforward!
I had a slight panic attack this morning about how much there was to do in so little time but I ate a slice of Mr.H.'s fruitcake and felt much better (along with a stiff cuppa). I calmed down.
What's also helped me too - is living in this area. We all pull together. Everyone has a good word for everyone else. The wonderful vicar has retired to pastures new but the three Judiths are doing an excellent job in his place. One of my super neighbours over at the little house is keeping an eye on the house and empties the bins for me (whilst we are here at the B&B). The marvellous doctor has left for fresh London fields (he, who helped me so much through my last year's health blip) but we still have a fantastic medical practice over in Haltwhistle. The lady at the chemist freely admitted, with a laugh, that it was her memory that was going and not mine when something got lost in the system. I went back to check that this morning. I thought that it was me who was going mad. (It cheered me up mightily on this dreary, cold, dank day.)
These are the things....family, friends, people, bloggers and Twitterers which/who really keep me going.
Thank you muchly for that! :)
Bye for now. Hadriana xx xx