Wednesday, 17 November 2010

Life with a capital "L"

I'm usually pretty hard on myself. I'm determined not to be.

I also find it quite hard to show how I am here - on this blog. So from now on I am challenging myself to be as open as possible.

When I first started blogging - it was like a drug. I had to do it night and day. I'd wake up and want to blog in the middle of the night. I'd let myself comment on a blog here and then I had to do another, another and another.

I reined myself back in as I felt very guilty when my son (aged two then) and daughter (aged five then) tugged on my sleeve...begging to be let between my eyes and the screen.
So I'd didn't let myself blog. I wrote posts and then felt very guilty when I didn't go back to other people's blogs.

So I am going to try again to see if I can be "normal" about it. I'd be interested to hear everyone's strategies for dealing with blogging. How often do you comment? Do you stick to the blogs you know? Do you strike out into unknown territory and if so...how do you do it? How often?

I've deliberately not mentioned too much about our 2009 annus horribilis ('orrible year) because it is so bad (in my head) that I still cannot bring myself to think too much about it. Some things are still ongoing and are "sub judice" (kind of "under review") as they say. When I can talk about them I will. Sorry to sound so mysterious.

I've enjoyed going out and blogging this morning. Catching up on a few blogs and hearing all about your different lives. I've heard that French Fancy has given up blogging (very sadly for us) and that Fly has moved to Costa Rica from France. Just to name a couple of examples.

I've made a list (for myself) of about 25 things that did not go too well for us last year but some things are definitely going right for us in 2010. The B&B is an undoubted success. Mr. H's father is a lot better than he was. He is over his period of mourning for his wife (who died on Christmas Day 2008). I'm feeling much better healthwise. (I was struck low by something truly 'orrible in 2009. With the right treatment that resolved itself.) We still need to seek a Winter Income and for that reason...I'm working on teaching Latin Minimus Courses to the wider world (combined with the guiding). I'm a tad nervous about that. I'll try and talk about my hopes and fears on that front if I can. (Having said that. The lovely Bettany Hughes was talking about Latin & Greek on Women's Hour this morning.)

We're still living between two houses and we need to try and decide what to do. I hate living out of bags but I'm prepared to face up to doing what I have to do purely to get this family reunited under one roof. Can we afford to do the loft conversion (for us) this Winter? (The sales of houses in this area are pretty dead. We've had the little house on the market for over a year now. Nothing doing. ) Needless to say our filing systems are not straightforward!

I had a slight panic attack this morning about how much there was to do in so little time but I ate a slice of Mr.H.'s fruitcake and felt much better (along with a stiff cuppa). I calmed down.

What's also helped me too - is living in this area. We all pull together. Everyone has a good word for everyone else. The wonderful vicar has retired to pastures new but the three Judiths are doing an excellent job in his place. One of my super neighbours over at the little house is keeping an eye on the house and empties the bins for me (whilst we are here at the B&B). The marvellous doctor has left for fresh London fields (he, who helped me so much through my last year's health blip) but we still have a fantastic medical practice over in Haltwhistle. The lady at the chemist freely admitted, with a laugh, that it was her memory that was going and not mine when something got lost in the system. I went back to check that this morning. I thought that it was me who was going mad. (It cheered me up mightily on this dreary, cold, dank day.)

These are the things....family, friends, people, bloggers and Twitterers which/who really keep me going.

Thank you muchly for that! :)

Bye for now. Hadriana xx xx

27 comments:

the fly in the web said...

About blogging....I blog when something starts me off, but I do try to blog once a week as a discipline.
Following blogs...I have my favourites...including this one....but I do go and look at Blogcatalog sometimes to see what I might be missing, too...though not very often.

It all depends on what I'm doing.
We've been busy recently getting Mr. Fly into the Costa Rican health service...so far a revelation for kindness, speed, efficiency and intelligence after ruddy France...so I'm not into the blog world so much, though still enjoying reading.
There is a vast overhang of stuff I want to blog about though...so at some point the avalanche will be upon you!

You are juggling one hell of a lot...and keeping it all going, so hearty congratulations!

Mark said...

I think we have periods of ability and it is pointless to fight them. Enjoy your blogging, but if you lose the muse for a while, don't worry about it.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Fly...thank you so much for your thoughts and feedback. Glad Mr. Fly is being treated much better by the Costa Ricans. I really do have a soft spot for that place! No wonder it is called The Rich Coast! :)

Mark: Thank you for that. My blogging muse is definitely all there. Once we get my laptop sorted with the Wi-Fi system here then things will be a lot easier.

Nota Bene said...

There's been various blogs just stop since I started...most recently was Millenium Housewife, which was a real shame as she was gloriously funny...

...I started because Nappy Valley Girl suggested I did, and then I relaised it was great way of keeping in touch with Grandma in Cyprus...

...and I blog when I should be working...it's a good work avoidance thing! I generally stick to the ones I know, but occasionally go on little 'Blogging safaris' I'll pick a blog (Bateau de Banane is a good one) and then just follow a link, then a link off that one and so on...it's amazing what you can find out there!

Alcoholic Daze (ADDY) said...

Glad to hear things are looking up. Here's to 2011 being the annus mirabilis (have I got that right?) I just post about once a week, although I read those on my bloglist on a daily basis. I find it hard to look up new blogs, so tend to stick with the same ones. I have tried to reduce the amount of time I post or read, as otherwise I would never do anything else!!! How some people manage to post every day baffles me.

Idaho Dad said...

After six years, I don't write blog posts nearly as much as I used to. And I know that my comments to other blogs have dropped of considerably.

Life just gets busier and busier, and blogging seems to be less and less important. But I don't want to disappear altogether, so I write something once or twice a week. And I do read a lot of blogs, or maybe I skim most of them. :)

As long as there's still some worth in being a part of the blogging community, I'll still keep my toe in it.

Dumdad said...

Blogging - how long is a piece of string? My blogging is up and down nowadays. I write something most weeks plus one or two features. I read other blogs, yourself included, although I seem to have less time now that I've joined Facebook - all those silly free games!

lakeviewer said...

Hi. I missed you too. Glad to see you around.
So sorry to hear about your horrible year. Here is to a brighter tomorrow!

p.s. I do so enjoy seeing Latin written here.
When I was a student, I complained about having to learn it; couldn't wait to leave it behind. Here, it brings me back to so many places and artifacts and memories.

Thank you, very much.

Strawberry Jam Anne said...

I was the same as you when I first began blogging, had to look in at any available moment. This year I haven't had much enthusiasm for it and somehow felt guilty!! However I am trying to make myself do a post each day through November and maybe get back into the hang of it again. So far, it is working quite well. I have still managed to keep fairly up to date with blogging friends thank goodness and I do try to look in at new blogs each week.

I'm so glad you are feeling better now Hadriana and that things in general are looking up for you. A x

Snowdrop said...

I relatively new to blogging. I started off with a target to blog daily, I then realised people have different mid week to weekend habits so took it to Mon-Friday only.

Life's got a bit busy so am now blogging when I can - (3 days a week) and have found my audience very forgiving when i can't.

What I don't do as often as I'd like is visit other blogs so my following is still quite low, but i only have 24 hours in a day.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Gosh! You've been all wonderful and left such great comments. I'd written very long replies to them all and this computer (notepad now) lost them. "Bleurgh!" as Snoopy would have said.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Going to try again: NB - work avoidance - you made me laugh. our website could have been written several times over had I not found blogging.

I'll check out the blogs you mention...esp. bateau de banane...very tempting!

Hadriana's Treasures said...

ADDY: You're spot on with your Latin - Optime! Excellent! I can do snap with you on the same familiar blogs. Hard to try something new (at least for me) - I'm tempted though for sure...:)

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Idaho Dad: I hear what you say and can definitely agree with it.

I like that phrase - keeping a toe in the water. I know it sounds bizarre but it's my perfectionism that wants me to spend ages on everyone's blogs. I don't think anyone expects it of me - just me! Typical. I think most bloggers would be happy if I skimmed and popped in more often than not which is what I'm going to try to do.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Dumdad: Yep. I definitely try and read your blog too. I still need to catch up on your poetry pieces and older posts.

Facebook and free games...blimey...I couldn't let myself go near those or I'd not get anything done. Very impressed that you manage to do all of that though. With such finesse!

Lakeviewer: I've missed you too. promise to do better honest! I've fallen back in love with Latin which I never expected to do. It's those blinking Roman stones - amazing what they do to me. Minimus mouse is a good course and flies off the page. I'm looking forward to teaching it and hopefully put some of it here.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

SJA: I'll try and follow you on your blogging this month. You and your mum are fantastic. Will follow your progress chez SJA. Hxx

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Snowdrop - hi! You've popped by before and lovely to see you back again. Yes...it's not easy to blog and work and find enough hours in the day. We need more hours! I'm not like Maggie Thatcher either (just as well) I need my 8 hours' sleep...not 4! You'll get there for sure with the blogging. :)

Alienne said...

I tend to read blogs at night in bed with my laptop (as I am doing right now) so it does not interfere with anything else I have to do, but it does sometimes keep me up a bit late! I tend to read the same 20 odd blogs, though some have dropped off recently. I usually find new ones by checking out the blog of someone who has commented on one of those I read. I don't always comment - sometimes I just have nothing I want to say.

I love latin too; I did it at school and loved it and then did it through the OU more recently; I have all the course books and have bought a couple more books of the Aeneid in Latin (we did Book IV for the second course) which I am going to work through for the sheer hell of it. I know I will enjoy it! I am thinking of getting Caesar's Gallic Wars in Latin too - I did some of that for O level - as a follow up. How sad am I? I think Minimus is very good - all the best with that. Children will learn more about grammar and accurate use of language from learning latin than they ever will in english.

Maggie May said...

I blame my brother Eddie Bluelights from Clouds & Silvery Linings (sorry I can't do links on comments. except my blog name which is automatic!) Because he introduces me to all these interesting people on his Roast & I get to know more & more people.
I like to comment regularly though can't manage to leave daily comments on those who post every day.
I post about 2 or 3 times a week but don't panic if I leave it longer.
I comment in small batches........ usually regular readers of my blog.When I pass my computer which is upstairs I feel I have to check!
Occasionally I look up an interesting new person if they catch my eye.
I like to be loyal to people I like & know & get quite upset when they might suddenly disappear from Blogland without trace & you never know what has happened to them.
I think that we mustn't be slaves to Blogging but I do feel it is so therapeutic when you let your hair down, that is. I am going off memes and things these days.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Alienne,

Your Latin sounds amazing. I fear that it would put mine to shame! Having said that I am contemplating doing a MA Course in Roman Frontiers at Newcastle Uni which has a Latin module. I can only hope that it will whip my A-Level Latin into shape. I'm sure it will. :)

My plan is to teach Minimus to children and beginner adults alike. It would also be nice if anyone wants to start to brush up their Latin as well. My ultimate ambition is to combine the course with everyone seeing the Vindolanda site so that everything can be put into context. That would make me very happy and hopefully a few other people as well! ;)

Maggie: I've been meaning to get over to your brother's "Sunday Roast" for some time now so must do it! I know what you mean about blogging being cathartic. Thoughts bubble up in my head and I'm not really happy until I write them down. I also know what you mean about memes...it's nice to let out information about yourself when you want to/feel ready. Memes kind of put the pressure on you (oneself) to spill some beans that are better off (quietly) milled, ground and then roasted. ha ha! ;)

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Children are off school today. Hope to get back to you soon!

Suburbia said...

I don't get much time to blog these days, trying to hold down 2 jobs means much less time, yet I miss it and my virtual friends, and do try to read my favourites, just to keep up with their lives. They are 'real' friends despite the medium.

You sound very positive despite everything. All my best wishes to you.

:-)

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Hi Suburbia,

Lovely to hear from you and I must catch up with all your news soon. You sound incredibly busy - 2 jobs - although I can relate to that...every penny counts.

I was weighing up with to buy my favourite shampoo (which has been discontinued but is still there on in the US on ebay). But no...I'm economising - it just can't be done!

Thank you for your best wishes. The bad year last year has taught me lots of things - what IS important and what is not. Family, friends (real and internet) DO count a great deal! Have a super weekend.

Dear all,

I'm hoping to be popping by your blogs soon and hope to catch up an "older" comments as well. Tomorrow is another Roman conference at Arbeia - Customs House. Can't wait!
Have a lovely weekend! :)

Sarah Cuthbertson said...

Ave, Hadriana

I'm afraid my blogging, Twittering and Facebooking have all dropped off sadly this year. But I've stopped feeling guilty about it. We have my mother living with us (with Alzheimer's) and a house move in prospect so I just don't have enough time at the minute to keep up with everyone.

I'm glad 2010 has been a better year for you and wish you every success with your 2011 plans. I see from Twitter that you've done a pilot Minimus lesson and are thinking of doing an MA in Roman Frontier studies! Great stuff!

I do hope your home plans work out too and your B & B continues to prosper.

Vale
Sarah

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Salve Sarah,

You sound very, very busy and can understand that blogging and Twittering have taken a back seat. That is completely and utterly understandable.

It's lovely to hear from you and it would be great if we can still keep in contact via Facebook, Twitter, e-mail. Just knowing you are out there in spirit is lovely to know.

Wishing you well with everything, with your Mum and the house move!

Vale! Hadriana xx

PS- Have you heard about the new campaign about more people and schools teaching Latin and Greek to all state schools within ten years? I am so excited by it! Big names like Boris, Bettany Hughes, Joanna Lumley, Colin Dexter, Tom Stoppard have all signed up to it. Page three - today's Sunday Times -main news section. :)

The Cloth Shed said...

Catherine, nice to meet you at the Christmas Fair in Hexham today. I am now following and no longer lurking.....
Julie x

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Hi Julie,

It was great to meet you yesterday. I couldn't believe someone had recognised me from my blog: Fame at last! ;) Thank you for following me and I'll reciprocate with pleasure. Look forward to reading your blog - The Cloth Shed looks fabulous! Hopefully we'll see more of one another in this marvellous county.

We really enjoyed ourselves, as a family, at the Christmas Fair. We spent all our pocket money! :)